When There Is Nothing To Fix
Lately, I’ve been swirling in the collective current — unanchored, off-kilter, and, at times, wordless. I’ve started and stopped many drafts, struggling to articulate the depth of what’s been rising within me. There’s been a quiet wrestling, a sacred frustration, as I’ve been called to reexamine what it means to be a caregiver, a guide, and a space holder.
As I reflected on my yoga practice — the steady, faithful rhythm of breath, movement, and presence I have so deeply reconnected with over the past year — I was struck by how much growth comes from showing up, especially when it’s hard. I realized something: I’ve started to lean into failure. Not because it’s comfortable, but because it's real. And within it, I’ve found a new kind of truth.
Still, the pressure of my role often weighs heavy. The unspoken expectations, the subtle projections — people come to me seeking answers, healing, direction. But my truth is this: I am not here to fix anyone. I never have been. My role is not to be the source of your wisdom, but the mirror that gently reflects you back to your own.
In a recent moment of stillness, this message arrived — clear, unshakable, and resonant:
You find stability in the instability.
You find your truth through failure.
You find your inner wisdom by surrendering to it.
There is never a fix, only an evolution.
Don’t be deceived by anyone that persuades you otherwise.
Peace is on the other side of letting go of the ideal.
Create your own ideal based on the blueprint of your soul.
Create it based on the core essence of your being - with love.
These words cracked something open in me. Since receiving them, a series of doorways have begun to open. The teachings I’m currently immersing in now echo with deeper meaning, aligning with this new awareness: We are not broken. There is nothing to fix. There is only remembering, realigning, and evolving.
The truth is, I am here to remind you of your power — the power that has been slowly, deliberately stripped from you by the systems and structures around us. We live within an infrastructure designed not to empower, but to divide and diminish. One that convinces you that someone else holds the answers to your body, your mind, and your healing.
This same infrastructure instills a fear of failure, and by extension, a fear of growth. Because when we stay stuck in cycles of disempowerment, we’re easier to control. Easier to mold into a version of humanity that serves systems — not souls.
Materialism. Consumerism. Sickness care over true healing. Pollution. Separation. Racism. Toxicity in our food, our minds, and our hearts. These are the ideals being fed to us, endlessly. And yet, we are told to look the other way. Convenient distractions are everywhere — curated to keep us from seeing, feeling, and remembering.
But let this be clear: we cannot fix what was never designed to serve us. We can only evolve — and that evolution begins with returning to our truth. The cycle of growth must begin again at the origin.
As spiritual beings inhabiting this Earth in human form, we are wired for love. For connection. For wholeness. And the path forward is not about chasing perfection, or trying to correct all that has gone wrong. It’s about shedding what isn’t ours. Reclaiming what always was. Returning to the innate wisdom of our soul — the part of us that remembers what it feels like to be aligned, grounded, and free.
And so I began to reflect more deeply on the nature of growth itself. What does it truly mean to evolve spiritually? What does it look like — not just in theory, but in practice, in the heart, in the body? What I found to be true is that spiritual growth is not linear — it’s a spiral. A sacred, unfolding journey that continuously invites us to deepen, release, remember, and return.
The Cycle of Growth and Spiritual Evolution
As I leaned into the message I received, I discovered the cycle of growth moves through several key phases that are deeply human and deeply divine:
1. Disorientation & Dissolution (The Sacred Unraveling)
Growth often begins with a sense of instability. A subtle (or intense) feeling of being off-center, lost, or uncertain. This is not a sign of regression, but a sacred unraveling. Old identities, roles, and patterns begin to dissolve. What once brought clarity now feels muddy. This is the soul’s invitation to pause, to go inward.
“Lately, I’ve been swirling in the collective current — unanchored, off-kilter, and, at times, wordless.”
This is the first step: the call inward, marked by discomfort. It asks us to surrender to what we do not yet understand.
2. Reflection & Confrontation (Facing the Mirror)
As we sit in the discomfort, we begin to reflect. We question the roles we've taken on, the beliefs we carry, and the systems we serve. We confront the projections others place on us — and the ones we place on ourselves. This is where truth begins to rise.
“There’s been a quiet wrestling, a sacred frustration, as I’ve been called to reexamine what it means to be a caregiver, a guide, and a space holder.”
This is the stage of inner confrontation. It takes courage to stay here. It requires us to face both our shadow and our light.
3. Surrender & Insight (Receiving the Message)
Through surrender, insight emerges. Not from force, but from stillness. A higher truth begins to speak. This is the moment when divine clarity enters — the moment of intuitive remembrance.
“You find stability in the instability. You find your truth through failure. You find your inner wisdom by surrendering to it.”
This is the seed of transformation — the turning point. Not because something is “fixed,” but because something real is remembered.
4. Empowerment & Truth (Reclaiming the Self)
Once the insight lands, we begin to reclaim our power. We no longer seek external validation or permission. We remember that evolution is not about becoming something else — it's about returning to who we already are beneath the conditioning.
“The truth is, I am here to remind you of your power — the power that has been slowly, deliberately stripped from you by the systems and structures around us.”
This is the reclamation phase. A fierce, loving return to sovereignty.
5. Integration & Embodiment (Living the Truth)
With time and presence, we begin to integrate. The insight becomes embodied. We change not just what we believe, but how we move, serve, relate, and lead. We no longer aim to fix or perfect — we live in alignment with our soul’s blueprint.
“Create your own ideal based on the blueprint of your soul… from the core essence of your being — with love.”
Here, the spiral prepares to turn again. Because evolution never ends — it deepens.
This is the Sacred Cycle:
Unravel.
Reflect.
Surrender.
Remember.
Reclaim.
Embody.
Repeat.
Each turn of the spiral brings us closer to our essence. And with every cycle, another layer falls away — not because we were broken, but because something more true was waiting to be revealed.
So, if you find yourself in the middle of your own unraveling — take heart. You’re not lost. You’re on the path. And that path is sacred. There is nothing to fix. Only the sacred invitation to return, again and again, to who you truly are.